It seems to be all gone, Tasha. I still love you, Baby but I find I seem empty inside. Catherine has said that I'm in mourning, depressed, etc. over the separation and I guess she's right.
Sharisse is wanting $300 so she can have a camper which she may get through an agency with their voucher into an RV place. I don't have that! I wrote and told her if I needed to send her this, I would have to let bills go and double up on them next month and I won't be sending it to her ... I said I would send it to the RV place. I wonder if this is the same place that she talked about going into as a renter and asked for money and when I said I would send it to the place itself, she tells me she made a mistake and they only have homes for sale and not rentals.
I sent her off the letter and will wait to hear from her. Meanwhile I will go on with my daily routines.
The locks are being changed tomorrow. Roger's been here sleeping in the 2nd bedroom and we're not really talking. I just have nothing to say/give anymore.
Joined a Yahoo group for dealing with divorce ... most stories include spousal support and children so I am kind of a different case.
Gotta get ready for work. Talk you later.
Love you always,
Mom
January 18, 2010
January 12, 2010
As you know ...
Roger got served with the legal separation papers yesterday. I guess talking to you has become more or less my new online journal. I still keep the written one ... remember I tried to keep one through my email folders but I guess I deleted the one I was working on as one day it was just gone. That will teach me to send it to my folder instead of keeping it like an email ... you know what I mean.
Even though he knew it was coming my stomach was still doing flip flops when the man was coming to the door and I had to tell Roger he was here.
He has 30 days to respond and then, from what I understood from the paralegal office, the judge will get it and sign off on it and I'll get the final papers in the mail. Then I can take it down to housing and it will be done.
Now if I can just get my damn locks changed. They were supposed to do it last month but Deb said she dropped the ball on that one ... they were supposed to do it yesterday but didn't come. Now I have to call Deb tomorrow and set it up for the next day I have off which isn't til a week from this coming Friday. Arrgghh.
I know there's a reason why it wasn't done ... I just want it done now. I'm tired of waking up and finding him here. But everything in God's time ... not mine.
I'm off to work ... talk to you later, my baby!
Love,
Mom
Even though he knew it was coming my stomach was still doing flip flops when the man was coming to the door and I had to tell Roger he was here.
He has 30 days to respond and then, from what I understood from the paralegal office, the judge will get it and sign off on it and I'll get the final papers in the mail. Then I can take it down to housing and it will be done.
Now if I can just get my damn locks changed. They were supposed to do it last month but Deb said she dropped the ball on that one ... they were supposed to do it yesterday but didn't come. Now I have to call Deb tomorrow and set it up for the next day I have off which isn't til a week from this coming Friday. Arrgghh.
I know there's a reason why it wasn't done ... I just want it done now. I'm tired of waking up and finding him here. But everything in God's time ... not mine.
I'm off to work ... talk to you later, my baby!
Love,
Mom
January 10, 2010
Almost Done abd a Dream
Jason's home. Got in New Years Day. Nice to have him back again.
Last payday I got a money order for the processor server. He came by and I gave him the paperwork. His Dad showed up this a.m. to serve the papers but Roger's not at home. So I will call Mr. Wyatt to let him know when Roger's here.
Had a dream about Max the other night. Funny ... it's very rare I remember my dreams but I remember this one. Max showed back up ... I think it was at the back door and not the front. I opened the door and there he was scraggly/thin with a hurt front paw. I remember I took him in and fed him up on the kitchen table. I know Tux was here but that's all I remember. Tasha, I have no clue what the dream means. Did you send it to let me know Max is still alive and more or less ok? Is he eventually coming home? I do know I get sad when I think on it. I know ... "well then, Mom stop thinking on it!" LOL
As always, I love you and will forever.
Mom
Last payday I got a money order for the processor server. He came by and I gave him the paperwork. His Dad showed up this a.m. to serve the papers but Roger's not at home. So I will call Mr. Wyatt to let him know when Roger's here.
Had a dream about Max the other night. Funny ... it's very rare I remember my dreams but I remember this one. Max showed back up ... I think it was at the back door and not the front. I opened the door and there he was scraggly/thin with a hurt front paw. I remember I took him in and fed him up on the kitchen table. I know Tux was here but that's all I remember. Tasha, I have no clue what the dream means. Did you send it to let me know Max is still alive and more or less ok? Is he eventually coming home? I do know I get sad when I think on it. I know ... "well then, Mom stop thinking on it!" LOL
As always, I love you and will forever.
Mom
January 1, 2010
The first day of a brand new year
Morning Tasha!!! Is this coming year going to be better at the Bridge than last? Maybe it would if the arrivals were alot less? That should be everyone's wish for a new year.
Jason's due home in a few. He's actually supposed to have arrived at 9:15 so he should be home any minute now.
I still don't know what Roger's thinking about this mess. I reread my journal and remembered those bad times in Boston. Made a list of all the things I "do" and sent him an email stating that (among other things) and said "with all I do all you HAD to do was the hours and you couldn't do that! A big part of me has died ... the way I feel now I will not be living with him again.
Let me leave you now as you certainly don't need my anger/upsetness to darken your days at the Bridge. Max is still out there and Tux has a new collar! He's such a sweetie and I thank you for sending him to us. Even though you didn't pick his name like you did with Max, I know you chose him.
Love,
Mom
Jason's due home in a few. He's actually supposed to have arrived at 9:15 so he should be home any minute now.
I still don't know what Roger's thinking about this mess. I reread my journal and remembered those bad times in Boston. Made a list of all the things I "do" and sent him an email stating that (among other things) and said "with all I do all you HAD to do was the hours and you couldn't do that! A big part of me has died ... the way I feel now I will not be living with him again.
Let me leave you now as you certainly don't need my anger/upsetness to darken your days at the Bridge. Max is still out there and Tux has a new collar! He's such a sweetie and I thank you for sending him to us. Even though you didn't pick his name like you did with Max, I know you chose him.
Love,
Mom
December 24, 2009
That time of the year again
Morning, Sweetie!!! It's the holiday season and your Momma's feeling down again ... you know why.
Jason's coming home to stay. Says he's rather be homeless in CA than in CO and, especially in winter, I can see his point. Hopefully I can get him to transfer to a college with dorms so he'll have a place to live.
Sharisse hasn't decided what she's going to do. Dwayne's supposed to be out in Jan but then will be transported back here to serve his time. We'll see how that goes. She's always flip flopping in her plans but she can't do anything til maybe Feb. cuz good ole Mom ain't got no money since it went to Jason. Maybe I can get her to go to a college in WA in a larger state with dorms also.
I still have to finalize the legal separation papers for Housing but that will have to wait til Feb. also.
Only Allah knows what everyone's future is right now.
I know you're enjoying the holidays at Rainbow Bridge. Will Santa be visiting?
Love,
Mom
Jason's coming home to stay. Says he's rather be homeless in CA than in CO and, especially in winter, I can see his point. Hopefully I can get him to transfer to a college with dorms so he'll have a place to live.
Sharisse hasn't decided what she's going to do. Dwayne's supposed to be out in Jan but then will be transported back here to serve his time. We'll see how that goes. She's always flip flopping in her plans but she can't do anything til maybe Feb. cuz good ole Mom ain't got no money since it went to Jason. Maybe I can get her to go to a college in WA in a larger state with dorms also.
I still have to finalize the legal separation papers for Housing but that will have to wait til Feb. also.
Only Allah knows what everyone's future is right now.
I know you're enjoying the holidays at Rainbow Bridge. Will Santa be visiting?
Love,
Mom
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